Oh how I wish we could go through life floating on a cloud. Everything coming easy . . . no hardships or tough times. Sadly, life doesn't seem to be that way. Each day is something new to face and conquer. Another hurdle to clear one more mountain to face. And honestly . . . sometimes it doesn't seem worth it. To deal with the heart ache . . confusion . . . and water works, but then sometime that silver lining shows its self for just a second and all hope comes flooding back.
I have been in this place of building others up and letting my own self fall apart. I have let my walk with God go down hill so I could help others in their walk. Which is horrible.
Revelation 3:15-16
15I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! 16So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.
I pray I never turn lukewarm . . I don't want to be wishy-washy for God. I want to be on fire for Him. Only He can help me when things get tough . . only He and heal my heart . . my hurts . . the things that have let me down or failed me. I need a jump start . . a swift kick in the pants. . . . I think I am getting what I have been asking for.
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