One Step At A Time

Oh how I wish we could go through life floating on a cloud. Everything coming easy . . . no hardships or tough times. Sadly, life doesn't seem to be that way. Each day is something new to face and conquer. Another hurdle to clear one more mountain to face. And honestly . . . sometimes it doesn't seem worth it. To deal with the heart ache . . confusion . . . and water works, but then sometime that silver lining shows its self for just a second and all hope comes flooding back.

I have been in this place of building others up and letting my own self fall apart. I have let my walk with God go down hill so I could help others in their walk. Which is horrible.

Revelation 3:15-16

¹⁵I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! ¹⁶So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.

I pray I never turn lukewarm . . I don't want to be wishy-washy for God. I want to be on fire for Him. Only He can help me when things get tough . . only He and heal my heart . . my hurts . . the things that have let me down or failed me. I need a jump start . . a swift kick in the pants. . . . I think I am getting what I have been asking for.

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I'm Searching For The Better Part Of Me.

Sigh* this is the beginning of the TWW . . Two Week Wait. Seeing if all of our efforts and planning have been helpful. I look up on line what other people go through . . . and so many people have the same signs and here I am . . . with nothing. Or what they go through for the 'first time' I feel every time I start my lovely time of the month. It's just frustrating and annoying. I am praying that these next 2 weeks go by fast. . . . and that Jason and I will find out soon if we should be excited or wait another month and try again.

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Mr. & Mrs. Jones

The Wedding went amazing well . . the pictures turned out amazing! Congrats to Karen and Nick on their Wedding. The service was beautiful . . . they had everyone in tears. I am so thankful for the opportunity to Photograph their Wedding. :) It was an experience I will never forget!

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Upcoming Weekend Wedding

So this weekend my sister and I will be driving down to Ohio for me to do my first official Wedding. :) So I have been practising a few shots . . trying to make sure I do the best I possibly can. I am looking forward to spending the time with my sister and for the experience of doing the Wedding. I hope and pray the pictures turn out nice. I don't want to disappoint the Bride & Groom. This will not only show me if I have what it takes, but I truly believe it will show others around me I am serious about the work I do. I am very happy about this weekend . . . despite the ulcer growing in my stomach from stressing out. lol I think this is a good thing all around.


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Tea Time.

I need a weekend to relax . . . and be extremely care free.

Close To Home.

My husband and I have been together for the past 3 years . . . and have been married for 2 of them. We have come to an agreement that it is time to start a family. So next month we are going to officially start 'trying' to bring a new life into this world. I don't know which is scarier becoming a mom . . . or having a child in this mess we call a world. But the more we pray the more we feel God is saying everything going to be ok. . . and thats what we are going by. I believe being a Nanny has helped me peek into the life of motherhood, but nothing will prepare you for what will take place bringing that helpless baby home. I have mixed feelings about labor, sleepless nights, sore body parts, crying, teething, blow out diapers. . . and all the other stuff that comes with child raising. . . . but all of the bad things don't weight out all the amazing things I look forward too holding MY baby, their first smile . . first step, first word, talking to them about their day, playing games with them, loving them . . taking care of them . . all of that and more melts my heart. I can't wait . . the good . . the bad . . the ugly . . the pain and tears . . . happiness and smiles. . . all of it . . . I am looking forward to this next phase in my life.

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Don't Look Back

This is a picture of me and my friend Amber. . . I love her dearly . . . We have known each other for the past 3 years . . . She has been one of the few people who has supported everything I have done. We are both brutally honest people . . . and you would think it would break a friendship . . . if anything it shows us that we can really count on each other. :) My latest thing is trying to lose weight. . . I want to be healthy again . . . my goal right now . . is to just get under 200 . . . I don't want to crash diet . . . I want to lose the weight and have it stay gone . . . that would be amazing. . . and with such a supportive friend I know that it will be possible.

So Amber . . . thanks for being a friend to me . . . when it seemed like no one else understood. For making time to listen to me complain and for always having the right words to say.

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